This is really hard

The no sleep, breastfeeding, your body is no longer yours period of motherhood. I love my baby, my babies, I truly do. They are my world. But I need to be me too. At least for an hour a week. And I don't know how to make that happen when I am so tired, when my baby doesn't sleep longer than 4 hours at night and doesn't take but 20 min naps during the day (arffgggf!!!) and I am so run down that I am the only one with a cold in the house. Everyone else had enough of a functioning immune system to not get sick but me. 

And then he smiles at me and I feel a bit of energy...